WHO AM I !

All the energies in this world converge to one living question which cribs to ask u who exactly are u? why are u where u are ? what are u doing where u are? and why are u doing what u are doing ? he he ! u can scratch ur head and reject the whole article as obsolete.

but again, if u focus on every phrase before every '?' , u will find relevance. all questions collectively ask u to think, 'what exactly do u want ?'. what exactly u want from ur life, ur ownself, ur surroundings, ur beloved ones. in other words, it makes u find solace, satisfaction and last but not da least ways to get them.

Revolving around the above abstract questions is my own life, infact somewhere or the other that of all of us. Born in India, where child population is so high that after 20-30 yrs we indians will remain to be the youngest country in da world. you can imagine that right from my mother's womb, was i in a fierce competition. so many peers around at a time. when time to go to school came, competition was there to get into the best school in the city. I still remember my dad saying he standing overnite from nite 11:00 pm in an endless queue at the counter which open at next morning 8:00 am, just to take the form of the best convent school in the city. I was lucky to get through but were all the same? surely not ! what happened to those guyz? were they less compitative? definately not. but education from a disciplined convent school grew in me a personality which was slightly superior from those guyz whose parents were lazy enough to not stand overnite for 9 hours. which eventually led me to india's one of the best educational institutes in todays date. Moral of the story, I wasnt born smart. its just I won this battle in the war of peer competition. infact my parents won.

Then came junior college. Again, the citizenship of india plays the spoilsport. in other words in this country if u arent a doctor or engineer, u should be ready to be executed for no reaosn. sometimes think what bribe has these engg and docs payed to create such unjustified mentality. Well Well.....did i say unjustified? or is it really? Whatever, but this prevalent option for everyone around has led to an even fierce competition which has given rise to heard's mentality. who cares wass da outcome of this is? will the person spend his logic in doing what gives u short term good results or encourage the long term focus.

If this is the case, then should we blame those who fall for this herd's mentality. making their life a race.Bhaago..Race hai ! I am sure Ranchoddaas chhachhad wont have exectuted this dialouge if he would have known this case.

We say to be happy in life, do what u like and frankly thats exactly where u find the answers to the questions those shot earlier ! Its so simple rite? so why is it not easy for the abundant intelligent people around to understand this. Baba Ranchoddas say sachin tendulkar shudnt sing and lata mangeshkar shudnt play cricket. So simple, sachin was born to play cricket and didiji was born to sing her legacies. hence, everyone should do what they feel they do the best. My only question is how far is it feasible for everyone to have this attitude and succeed in a country like India where everything is so limited except talent and population. Ultimately the buck stops at the point where u will earn a satisfactory living rather than fulfilling your fantasies. and in this country, former is a more feasible option rather than latter to earn a comfortable living.

This whole dilemma got me into engineering. My parents wanted me to be a doctor and my sister to be an engineer. Hence we both decided, to switch roles just to dissatisfy our parents. We won rite ? But ultimately it was we who were fooling ourselves, especially me. After scoring satisfactorily pre graduation, i got into electronics and telecommunication engineering and immediately after 1st year i discovered my lack of interest for engineering.Eureka . Happy Realization ! But had to sail through as it was my dad's money going into my studies. KTs and all, comfortably sailed through in 4 years to get into an industry which had nothing to do with my wasting of 4 years. IT company ! Even here i found my lack of interest but with god's grace neednt spend a year for it. It was immediate as i joined. worked for 2 years to have so called workexp on my CV. again doing forcible things just to sail through so called competition.

Now start the next phase of my life. I came to my dream world, IIM-K and I fell in love with this place and I decided I wont leave anywhere early, atleast not before my colleuges. Its this place which made me a 'Man' from a 'Boy'. All the possible experiences of life which make u strong took place in this beautiful campus. I can say, I witnessed presence of God in Gods own campus and felt u just give in to its demands. It is here where i met a beautiful bunch of people who ended up becoming my best friends. They were my support at time of need. Never felt alone when they were around and u surely owe someone a lot in such cases. Its true IIM make good managers. Here, IIM made me a good human being.

But one more thing happened. My support for herd mentality suddenly vanished, when I dicovered that at certian point in life, u simply have to quit following the surrounding and after 2 decades of being a lamb in a bunch, I found its time I need to quit. I need to quit following the world blindly. Its time I do what makes me happy. Finally, following Baba Ranchoddaas after couple of decades opposing him.

This feeling didnt came in only 1 single soul but in 5-6 other people too. This gave rise to a concept called KREATE. Kreate became the reason to dump 2 decade of frustration to do what we werent allowed or maybe wasnt available to do, 'BE YOURSELF'.

And suddenly the world seems a lot different. Today I am a naive person struggling to learn traits of business to compete in outside world. Scrwed, Fumbled, Rose up, again fumbled, agin rose up, fought, prevailed....literally everything that make you give up. Infact there were times I use to sit in the official hangout place of Team Kreate calle FO point. we call it frustration outlet point. I even felt like changing its name to Fall Out(FO) point but again I discovered I wanst a cowerd enough to do this to my beloved ones.I am where I am now and I am enjoying it. screwed my life big time, but ultimately enjoying the screwup. ;) :P

It is true for all of us, today or tomorrow we will get out of this forced upon life to come out of your shell. Beautifully said, 'EK UDAAN KAB TALAK YUN KAID RAHEGI'.

Its time we all try discover ourselves and. 'Create the REAL YOU'. Earlier, the better !